Beautiful Day

A day when someone truly sees your worth.
Who values your time as much as their own.
Who gets how you feel.
Who never uses you to fill up their emptiness.
All those promises one makes, are actually filled with truth.
That you do not merely use others to fill your needs.
That you know how to give someone your total attention,because you know their importance.
That your capable to feel someones pain and hurt,and you can lend the some of your love.
That your able to hear what someone needs and you have the love to give them that.
That is the beauty of a day when you see someone elses worth.
Finally when you know your own worth.

karmasage

Why don"t You Trust Me

You ask me why I do not just love you.
I simply do,just tired of being last on your list.
In the same breath you ask me why I cannot trust you.
Who expects you to understand,when I always accept can't or your tempting words.
How does a girl trust man who wants to spend his time alone without you.
Who when he has bit money to afford a trip it is not too see you.
Who only wants to spend time sharing his words with you on a computer.
He thinks he spoils you with an odd phone call.
Who plays games to invoke you.
Every time you ask him something he rarely comes through.
So you really think this how you show someone to trust you?
How does girl believe you want her, cause you forget to show her.
He never asks you into his world,and when he asks he knows you will decline cause he knows your not trusting.
God only knows who I share you with,cause everyone needs to share themselves with someone.
Did you forget Love is not just something you decide you do but actually is verb that takes over.
Can you honestly ask me now why I do not trust you?
You have set the tone for how you want me to trust you!
So that is what I have been doing, just loving you, even though you do not trust me.
Karmasage

Unravelling into the power of me

The reddish auburn glow, I was now about to face.
The place where my deep desires are rooted.
I need to began to unravel the passion inside me.
I am trying to embrace the uncertainty.
I am holding my hands open to all the change and new possibilities.
I want to be alive and let things unfold.
My fears need to be put on hold.
I want to open to all that has been waiting.
I do not want to wait till things are perfect.
I want to live in truth.
Submerged in my reckless abandon.
Merged into flawless bravery, ready to be renewed.

karmasage

Lost in the feeling

I feel like a salvage boat adrift in the water.
Neglected, unkempt, like somebody forgot to love me.
I feel like that diamond in the rough.
The diamond that no one found because the shine
was not quite brilliant enough.
I feel like the apple tree that everyone wanted to
cut down because it was rot with disease.
Even though the tree, bared fruit, when it healed again.
I feel like the abandoned house, that still adorns
precious pictures, clothing, and pots left on the burner.
The memories still breathe even though,
the people are only lonely ghosts.
I feel like scorched forest,paralyzed with no breath.
A spark and burning ember,still lives amongst the roots,ready to ignite.
I am the clear cut forest damaged with severed roots,
lifeless and broken.
Mere stumps left where the glorious lush freedom once lived.
The palate or greens,with musty freshness, now just a distant memory.
I feel like the hot sun which has lost its protective layer and causes damage
to everything it lovingly touches.
I feel like a Porcupine that everyone keeps its distance from, because the fear
of being pierced.
I feel like the person asleep alone on the street, misunderstood,abandoned,and invisible.
I feel like the mentally tortured; lost, disdained, feared,and fragile.
I feel like every woman that man does not value,who uses and mistreats.
I am the one never chosen with loving hand, cherished embrace, and thoughtful gesture.
I am the one that no one makes a sacrifice for,
whose grace is not observed.
I am the one who never gets the second look and always merely second best.
I am frayed, my beauty hidden, underneath I am adorned with a spiritual glowing light.
I am fragile,longing, and hoping to no longer be alone.
karmasage

BLISSED OUT
To some;today is the day cupid died.
The day when unlovable feelings,
can wash over you like a waterfall.
A day that can make you feel alone.
It is day measured by commercial love.
It is day that can be filled with pressure
to show your devotion and to be loved.

I have realized that everyday needs
to be an expression of love.
I chose a variety of people and shared
letters of love with my thoughts and words.

I loved myself with flowers and self-nurturing
A long luxurious shower smelly scrubs and brushes.
Conditioner for my locks.
Rose oil smoothed gently upon my face.
Lotions slathered head to toe.
Manicured my fingers and toes with clear shiny polish.
Followed by lemon tea and chocolate.
It was like I was preparing for a lover; to be loved.

However the truth,be known I had been loved
in the morning with call of love. Loved all day
with nurturing and self care.
Received flowers of
friendship with much surprise.
A pale pink rose anchored by deep white,
accompanied by pink rose anchored with hot pink.
With the sweetest smell and freshness of rose.
Ending the day with sweet words from someone
who loves me everyday...
I asked if he had chocolate today and he said ...you are my chocolate.
What can I say am lovingly blissed right out with smile on my face because I have been well loved.
karmasage

TWISTING INTO Love

In a mist I see your dark figure lingering.
I can feel your eyes penetrating and watching my every move.
I can feel you making mental notes of the way I do things in every detail.
I wonder if it is judgment, admiration, or amazement,when you watch so intently.
Do you hold each detail like loving memory.
Are these memories like landmarks on a map, so you can find me?

I wonder sometimes where you hold me inside!
Sometimes I feel you inside my soul.
Other times I feel you letting go.
I feel our inner damage in sync at times, are fears are where we divide.
When were together I feel the synchronicity of our passion pulsating deep inside.

I fear that you will never choose to have me near you.
I think at times you would sooner be alone in your freedom.
I wonder if your restraint is from fear of pain, or your waiting.
I do not always understand you notions of love.
Love for you is freedom.
Love for me is bent, in the reflection of sharing
and caring.

I sometimes think you, believe, my love is caging.
I sometimes think your freedom, is damaging.
This is where we meet,we fear our love will compete.
Our individual love creates a sense of insecurity, that depletes.
It is strange that you think I put you in cage, and I think you have built a cage to
keep me away.

Will either us find our divine love or will our love just fade!

KARMASAGE

Love's Confusion

A quiet avoidance.
A test of someones will.
Searching for the magitude of true desire.
Your unholy vow.
A dogma of Love.
Servitude and pleasure.
Chemistry and willingness.
Divine ambition for sensuality.
Partnering with breathless impatience.
Your aspiration to torment.
Never wanting to give in or relent.
karmasage

Loving Me

I have been searching for some kind of excitement.
A prince that rides me off into the sunset.
A glorious reunion with a lover that was meant to be mine.
Instead I find a myself all alone.
I had hope and the remnants of someone who chooses to be absent.
I do not want fragments of soul, who wants to leave me all alone.
I thought the excitement, the chase, and anticipation was pure desire.
I found only a liquid desire, that slips through my fingers.
I have a million fears one is invested in never believing that I could be brave and share every part of me.
I thought I finally found a kindred spirit who wanted to disappear into a paradise not for just a moment,safe,intertwined with rapture.
I wanted lazy days filled with love not stolen moments filled with lust.
I wanted you to have the same kind of longing that I have for you.
A longing that created action and risk,also filled with surprises and bliss.
Instead I found someone digging his heals into his own internal bliss.
I do not want a love who creates desire in promises and than retreats.
I want a gentleman who is surprised with his desire and does not hold back.
Glazed with precious glory,I thought you would not dismiss,but hold me with a kiss.
Six months with many promises and much neglect you have taunted me with hopes of one more kiss.
You ask me not to worry,but beguile me with stories that create jealousy.
I need you to finally share your inner regret.
You would rather not share sweet words aloud but hide behind the written word that can become very blurred.
Every where you go you will be haunted by your own fears,
the limtations you create will finally preciptate.
Finally the love I hold will, finally, be put on hold.
So please be bold, and never put your love on hold.
Love me, cherish me, pursue me with value, and show me how love can unfold!
karmasage

Unchained in a melody
I am again all alone.
Lost in love.
The love affair once again,
is just inside of my head.
I have longed for love, and
begged god to find a love for me that is true.
Instead a god was told to teach me,
to find a hidden love deep inside my soul.
God gives us all a love, that is never meant to die.
I wanted to find that too,inside another, soul to soul.
Instead a rhythmic beat began to explode.
A melodic journey cascaded deep within my soul.
My soul began to feel less alone,a journey of one became love untold.
Love inside permeated every pore, I no longer needed anything more.
karmasage

Where love resides

I have been waiting,what seems a liftime.
Months and months,this is for sure.
Wanting your love.
Your love for me however,is guilded
in friendship or perhaps not clear.
I hoped are love was not filled with fear.
I did not know this love was only my desire.
That my deep wanting would scare you away and keep you at bay.
I keep hoping you would find your way.

I am exhausted from trusting that are love would grow.
A love that showed and would simply flow.
My wishing was full blown,into my own fairytale.
I trusted you were my prince, and not a toad.
I had high hopes that that you would glow!
I was tempted and tantalized by your every move.
You are sweet and silky smooth playing me like the rhythm, on a drum.
Your palms and fingertips tracing every beat upon my heart.
I shudder inside at the thought of your lips touching mine.

I know if I wait,I will be waiting forever all alone because you will never concede
that your love resides for me.
I have lost the battle with your heart, always losing to one more of your dreams.
Your dreams are bigger than any love you have for me.
I guess I realized now that I have loved another, more than the love I had for me.
I wanted you think of me right alongside your every dream.
I wanted you to engage me into your life,no longer just on the outskirts where were always in a fight.
One last time I beg you let me inside,instead of continuing to tantilize me and tease me, just let me be.
karmasage

A Precious Moment

I felt safe in its embracing arms.
Each outreached arm provided a canopy of precious warmth.
I had shelter and place to feel calm.
It was womb or perhaps a cavern.
It had ethereal quality.
It provided a precious vision,
of reflective blue green crystal waters.
I finally felt home.
Pure peace and as the breeze breathed through.
I felt indulged with love
I felt a soul reflecting,awe!
karmasage

Love unspecified

In a memory,love is where I fall.
It is like distance dream and unreal.
A place where I once felt safe.
Where I never had to ligate.
Love embracing and reassuring.
A place to lay my head,from worry.
A place where love did not dissipate.
This is a place where love is precious.
There is no confusion,and there is no need for reason.
Love was the only season.

Karmasage

A certian kind of light

There is certain angle of light,
that makes everything sparkling an bright.
It makes eyes sparkle and faces resonate.
This light reveals with clarity the beauty; hidden
and not foreseen.
This light, nourishes and unleashes the light from
deep within.
The light reveals your beauty buried deep inside.
This light is like love, and makes your beauty show.
To my amazement, the light makes my love grow.
As the light and love flow, your beauty make me feel whole.

Karmasage

Amaryllis

The sun shines on your brilliance.
I see you pushing forth.
With strength and resilience.
Your magnificence unwavering.
Your glory is ready to embrace us.
Your growth is awe inspiring.
I feel the joy as I see you open.
The sun and life's sustenance breathing life into you.
Your deep unguided journey emanates the passion for living.
The power is the will and ability to flourish by the simple will
of a gods love and and the earths sustenance.
With amazement I will see you take your first deep and passionate breath.
Oh joy! There will be! As you you unmask with clarity,your beauty.
Karmasage

A Year Begin's

I was a scavenger in the night,
searching for answers and possibilities.
Something to fill me up!
Looking for the one thing, a solution
to my puzzle.
Something I could not find in someone or something else.


It took me to this moment,this very new year
to realize I am the key to my puzzle.
I feel at this moment, the answer to my
puzzle lives inside of me.
No other has key that fits the very hole,
that has locked up my soul.
I no longer need someone to navigate my
position, my inner compass has come alive.
I feel like I just chartered a flight not
a destination, but my journey is in sight.

I feel a passion erupting inside me,
not for another, but just for me.
I never really had a inner love that was just for me!
I was always waiting to be shattered,
when someone would stop loving me.
The rejection was more than I could bare,
that I would push them away.
Always making bargains that I could
succeed if they just loved me,in the right way.

Now it is me who is in charge of nurturing
an inner love that is done my way.
Maybe now I will be able to accept the love
that comes my way.
I will now take the time to understand with
love and not with fear.

I cherish this new year as it Begin's!
I feel a new beginning, I finally have
have hired a captain to steer my very own ship.
Although this is just an analogy,
I have found the love that,I
was always meant to see.
The love I have for me!
Karmasage

Grace

I have been searching for some peace.
Searching outside myself,to make a lease.
The love I found I knew was dear,
instead I embraced all my fears.
The love I need to erase these fears,
resides deep inside of me.
A selfless love that encompasses, thee.
Sacred in its desire to show me the way.
A self love which is cherished and will help me break free.
Love adorned with sweet purity.
This is when I will truly sustain love with every sense of grace.
Karmasage

Where's Loves Purity

I am very in touch,
with my insecurities with love.
My lack of trust diminished,
each time a button is pressed.
I sense an unveiling; of my unbridled
abandonment.
My expectation of love so high that
it sets up a love for failure!
The gestures of love, tests me,
and tempts me.
This Viral Love creates want and
criticism!
I blame others for not loving enough,
but this perfect love in my head does
not exist.
It is the love that already
exists that I need,
to embrace!
Let go of my fears, and feel whats there!
I am always been looking for this pure love
and in fact I am the one who needs to ensure
my love is pure.

Karmasage

Lost

All I do is hold my breath!
Waiting,wishing,and hoping!
I need you to embrace me!
I need you to forgive me!
You instead push away and avoid
what you do not like.
You want to let things be.
You know that hurts me.
In solitude and not
much grace, I try to
find my place.
I try again to find
my peace.
Karmasage

Love where do I find you?

My hurt is not gone,but I just want
to let go.
I lived in the tears,and inside the pain.
Now I made my way back again.
I feel stronger,yet my pain sneaks back again!
I do not know how you feel,cause all I can hear
is your sarcasm and pain.
You sometimes redicule me and do not believe me.
I wonder if I can ever find the love again.
In you, in someone else, or find it inside me instead.
Everytime you ignore me,I feel my abandonment over and over again.
I know I have caused you hurt and pushed you away.
My lesson I am learning is I to cause pain, when I push people away.
My pain is not greater, or any less minor.
I am searching for love by healing these pains.
I wonder now if love will now find its way.
karmasage

Leaving

You are slipping away,
like sand slipping through my fingertips.
You feel like a stranger to me.
You found your glory,and your vulnerability.
I think you may of forgot about me.
I want you to be in your joy
but make a little room for me.
Even in are search through the dark
you still would always find me.
Through difficulties and challenges
you still believed in me.
I need some time,just a little for
me. I see how passion can bleed into
bits of nothing.
All your passion is for succeeding.
I cry for our passion that is leaving.
I thought myself strong,now I am wondering!
I feel fragile and dismissed.
I know you are exhilarated and happy!
But somehow I think you have now abandoned me.
karmasage