Grace

I have been searching for some peace.
Searching outside myself,to make a lease.
The love I found I knew was dear,
instead I embraced all my fears.
The love I need to erase these fears,
resides deep inside of me.
A selfless love that encompasses, thee.
Sacred in its desire to show me the way.
A self love which is cherished and will help me break free.
Love adorned with sweet purity.
This is when I will truly sustain love with every sense of grace.
Karmasage

Where's Loves Purity

I am very in touch,
with my insecurities with love.
My lack of trust diminished,
each time a button is pressed.
I sense an unveiling; of my unbridled
abandonment.
My expectation of love so high that
it sets up a love for failure!
The gestures of love, tests me,
and tempts me.
This Viral Love creates want and
criticism!
I blame others for not loving enough,
but this perfect love in my head does
not exist.
It is the love that already
exists that I need,
to embrace!
Let go of my fears, and feel whats there!
I am always been looking for this pure love
and in fact I am the one who needs to ensure
my love is pure.

Karmasage

Lost

All I do is hold my breath!
Waiting,wishing,and hoping!
I need you to embrace me!
I need you to forgive me!
You instead push away and avoid
what you do not like.
You want to let things be.
You know that hurts me.
In solitude and not
much grace, I try to
find my place.
I try again to find
my peace.
Karmasage

Love where do I find you?

My hurt is not gone,but I just want
to let go.
I lived in the tears,and inside the pain.
Now I made my way back again.
I feel stronger,yet my pain sneaks back again!
I do not know how you feel,cause all I can hear
is your sarcasm and pain.
You sometimes redicule me and do not believe me.
I wonder if I can ever find the love again.
In you, in someone else, or find it inside me instead.
Everytime you ignore me,I feel my abandonment over and over again.
I know I have caused you hurt and pushed you away.
My lesson I am learning is I to cause pain, when I push people away.
My pain is not greater, or any less minor.
I am searching for love by healing these pains.
I wonder now if love will now find its way.
karmasage

Leaving

You are slipping away,
like sand slipping through my fingertips.
You feel like a stranger to me.
You found your glory,and your vulnerability.
I think you may of forgot about me.
I want you to be in your joy
but make a little room for me.
Even in are search through the dark
you still would always find me.
Through difficulties and challenges
you still believed in me.
I need some time,just a little for
me. I see how passion can bleed into
bits of nothing.
All your passion is for succeeding.
I cry for our passion that is leaving.
I thought myself strong,now I am wondering!
I feel fragile and dismissed.
I know you are exhilarated and happy!
But somehow I think you have now abandoned me.
karmasage

Every person wants someone to
love them.
Without conditions with total
acceptance.
We have a deep desire to be supported,
to share our glory and our fears.
We hope to find a place that
we belong.
A soft place too fall.
I long for a love, that supports
where I belong.
That is full with grace,and alleviates
all my fears.
Embracing and unwaivering.

Angel Blessings

She had grace,
She had a certain kind of light,
a gentle warmness,
a peace,
a person who was purely kind,
undeniable strength,
courage
and clarity and will
perhaps a spirit of like minds.

I have waited for you
for a lifetime.
Waiting for you to show up.
Waiting for you to find me.
Waiting for you too really love me.
I thought we had a sacred love!
A sacred trust.
But we forgot to be kind.
We forgot how to accept.
How to cherish and embrace.
We could not surrender.
We would not sacrifice.
We have are agendas,are baggage.
Are wills.
Where is the grace of love.
What happened to the sweet peace.
Nothing is left but a disheveled bond
and unbearable distrust.
A fractured love.

KARMASAGE

Transformation
A beating heart.
A lover 's touch.
An angel's embrace.
A warm smile.
Forgiveness.
Fear to Faith.
Every moment embraced.
A hug from a child.
The love of a furry friend.
A majestic view.
Rhythm of the ocean.
The warmth of the sun.
A forest canopy.
A blessing from above.
A Love that runs deep.
True Peace.

Karmasage

Open heart

I relent,I find my faith.
I no longer want to struggle.
I do not want to beg you
or be let down.
I do not want someone who
is incapable of caring.
I want words that have deep
meaning and filled with action.
That is what brings sweet peace,
a heart that shares.
Karmasage

The test of Love

I feel like I am in battle.
All I want is peace.
I am tired of the anger I feel.
I know it takes two to break apart the love,
so your not all to blame.
Maybe if I let you be right
and let go of my anger and shame,
than we can blow out the flame.
Than maybe you will let me be.
I know that the freedom I seek will
really equal me missing you.

I just do not want to fight,
it is too hard.
I am not ready yet to let go
of my love..but you
have moved forward and I need
chance to do that to.

You have love for me, and are
scared to lose me completely.
Sometimes you have to let go
of love, set someone free, and
they may find their way back.
You have to have the trust, they will
come back to you.
Different and stronger.
You have a fear of losing me,
but right now their is nothing
left of me.
Our love has shifted, with fear and distrust.
Our love collided but it has become misguided.
I will always love you,but I can live with love
and not trust you.
I can not live joyfully when you do not trust me
enough to share with me.
Are wanting and desire is not strong enough
anymore to accept what we lack.

I am spent, not strong, not resilient
and lost.
I can not live wondering and not trusting
you.
I wanted to feel safe and be invited into your
life.
You are scared to be trapped but I would never
have path to find you.

I do not at this point know where to go.
I do not have desire to control you.
I have no energy to go looking for you.
If you wanted me to, I would however find you.
No more of energy will be spent fighting you,
blaming you, or escaping you.
Let's just find some peace.
karmasage

Moving toward Peace for me

I let go of any outcome.
I choose to not worry anymore,
that you will go away.
At this point I feel our
distance.
I do not want games,worries,
or frustration.
I do not want to choose to
feel alone with someone.
I know I can smile even when my
heart is breaking.
I know I will not die if you do
not call me,email me or message me.
I know I have reacted to every hurt and
test,each time showing that I care, at the
same time attacking.
My every breath has been filled with consciousness,
my every hurt and test filled me with anxiety.
Love is not something that should hurt,
and friendship has it ups and downs but a friend
does not hurt someone intentionally.
I am not sure what your plan has been but if
you listened you would of never caused further
pain.
I will no longer waste a moment trying to figure
out, how connection like I thought we had , could
come to end.
Maybe I believed, that we both would see the light,
heal our hurts, and find our way.
But neither of us had the courage to find a better way.
So I will now let us be, and I choose to find a way for me.
Karmasage

I drift...you try to reach me.
Instead of holding on, you test me.
I guess I will never know when you
were honest and when it was just a game.
Maybe it was my lack of trust or
maybe it was you never gave me
a reason to trust.
Maybe we created a mirror where you
loved parts of me and I loved parts of you.
All I know is that it has been four years
or more, and now it does not mean much anymore.
It makes me sad that we both sets limits on love.
I can not see past your commitment issues,your misconstruded truths,
and limits to friendship.
Nor can you accept me for my desire for commitment, integrity
and openness.
We hold each other in bondage,in each others personal limitations.
Neither of us can move past are own capabilities.
Afterall when love is real you want to be more.
You try to continue and test me, but instead you have taught me how
to not care anymore.
I long for what might of been, but it was only my personal longing
and yours also.
We could of stayed friends if last Christmas you would of not changed
the rules and tested the limits and seen how far we might go.
Instead your left with woman who does not how to accept a man for a friend
with who she can not trust and would choose to hurt her instead.
If you want a loyal friend you never hurt them in the end.
I could of lived with friendship if you could of loved me enough
to know that my heart would break.
That my anger was awakened when you hurt me and made fun of the love I
had for youagain and again.
Although wrong, I attacked and found your set of buttons and
pushed straight ahead.
I have found that when man is just not capable of loving you,for who you are,and
you start to devalue who you are, that is not love.
To myself I finally need to be true, letting go is something I must do.
I do not know the outcome of what things will turn out to be, but for right now I must cherish myself instead of concentrating on you.
I would of continued put you first and lose myself, and forget about me.
In the end that is what I can thank you for, showing me that I need to love and trust myself once again.
In the end ,I know I cannot be patient, or loving enough to change someones mind.
I will try to find true love someday, acknowledge love lost, and even recognize a true love is not perfect. That individual pain sometimes suceed.
In the end we end up with nothing because we thought of are own needs instead of ours.
Karmsage

Finally

I am looking for my balance.
I do not want to close my heart
just because I was wrong in believing you.
I recognize that I have heart that is filled with passion,
hope, fragile momentum, and tenderness.
My heart also fills with anger when it is not shown due care.
My heart feels the ache of being left alone,when you have not chosen to be there.
I also can see that my fears smother my trust, and make me ache,
and finds its way to some degree of hate.
My heart can no longer long for something that will never grow and flourish, and become stronger.
My heart took a risk on you and my heart fears won, and broke down my trust in both you and me.
I recognize now that allowed myself to shatter into pieces and let go of my integrity, in hopes that you would finally love me.
I realize now that only thing that is left is, to let go.
I will never know your truth or what you wanted from me I thought it was love but now I feel it was only power over me.
To break my spirit and diminish my will.
You said you wanted peace and easy, yet you spent more time testing me and breaking me.
When you took away my peace, I took your peace, and we shattered piece by piece our connection.
Our Love and compassion, diminished, and finally nothing left for us to keep.


Karmasage

FINDING MY WAY
I let go of you to allow love in again.
I let go to find my belief in love again.
I let go of you to recconnect to my intuitive nature.
I let go of you because you remind me of my fears,
and insecurities.
I let go of you so I can no longer feel your rejection.
I let go of you because you have chosen a path that
can not include me.
I let go of my belief and the trust I once had for you,
cause I finally heard your truth.
I let go of you cause you did not value my truth enough
to embrace what you knew would hurt me.
I remove my belief in our connection,because I forgot to believe in myself
and only you.
I let you go because, I want to let go of my all fears that I can survive without you.
I let go so I can no longer deny, but accept what is true.
I let go because the outcome is not in my control.
I let you go,so I can find my way back again.
KARMASAGE

Transformation
I created a vision.
An expression of myself.
All my dreams presented
to Universe in one place.
A manifestation of what
I want and what is important.
Things I keep putting off and
have not manifested.
I want to shine and want
things to change.
I trust that faith and practice,
will create a whirlwind of Bliss.
I am open and ready to embrace
what my soul has been waiting for.
karma-sage

Intoxicating like velvet smooth vodka.
Luscious and soothing like melted chocolate.
You lavish words of love!
You trace your fingers tips around my heart.
My tears fall when you embrace me.
Like a soft cloud, you catch my fall.

Your longing to lose yourself in my love.
You dream of the desire waiting inside me.
You thrive on the love that beats threw my veins.
You want to escape and align yourself in my subtle power.
You see a soul that reflects a passion you desire.

Each stroke latent with passion.
Each moment is like ecstasy.
You push deeper to find me to help me break free.
When you penetrate inside me my juices explode.
You cut through layers of pain and savour my soul.

You have been waiting for my ego to fall away.
Waiting so shallow and certain that I might expand my ways.
Your fantasies of me sharing another, presses you to push further, in your way.
You savour my juices and in fondness, you pray!
You know I will succumb to your passion and find my way.

You undress my fears and pleasure,and you trace your fingers in praise.
You savour my lips and devour my mouth in hope that I will play.
Devout I let you push deep inside with my legs opened wide.
With lust and devotion, an orgasm slips in the way.

With callous adoration you dive deep within.
You look in my eyes and and watch every move,hoping to capture my every view.
You savour my ways; and deep and loving devotion.
You hold me close and we both find our way.
Karmasage

With great revelry I loved you.
With great trust,I revealed my soul.
With vulnerability and tender rage my passion flowed.
With little restrain and open arms I fell in.

I thought you tender and guild-ed with gold.
A creation of my making,something I longed for deep inside my soul.
Like tender Burgundy blooms, my heart ravished you.
Quiet passion evoked ,a lasting tenderness and a burning rage.
My wounded heart thought, finally love, had blessed me.
Pure and intense desire, I thought I triumphed majestically.
Sanctified in desire,a holy mystery, I dove in passionately.
I wanted you to be the love I desired, instead you broke me,and
you underestimated the love I felt inside me.
A raging pain,divulging an unholy emptiness and breaking me.

Magnifying something I created, and love I thought would never end.
In you I trusted,I thought you would embrace me in the end.
In my solitude, with faith and un-abandoned tears,I start to find the
courage to release all my fears.
No longer will I let you evoke my anger,and I will let my heart find another.
In passion and in shame, I surrender, and I believe I will find love again.

Karmasage

Love me like you used too...

Your losing a part of me.
Piece by piece, I am falling away.
Each time you test me.
I start to fade away.
Like silk on a body, I am slipping away.
Your love is bent and distorted.
Like a soft melody.

Love is not meant to hurt or break you.
Love is meant to encompass you.
Love is place where you want to fall.
Where if your broken, you mend.

I thought love was simple.
Strong, bold, and invincible!
Love is not meant to be stained with tears and broken by fears.
Love should not shame you.
It should be tender and pure.
Contained with unleashed wildness where you surrender of all your pent up tears.
Fears melt away, like snow on a mountain.
Love is meant to wrap you up, and embrace you.
Tender and mild, it helps to sustain you.
Like a deep breath, and holy exhale.
Love tends to you and whispers with sweet caresses.
Like a Map,it helps you find your way.

karmasage

Stuck

Like feet in muddy bog.
A body in quick sand.
Fear of being alone.
A relationship that has,
come to an end, and you stay there.
Years of grief, and you remain there.
Job disatisfaction.
Embracing only fear.
Choosing to worry.
A car trapped in a snow rut.
Like Crazy Glue.
karmasage