Unchained in a melody
I am again all alone.
Lost in love.
The love affair once again,
is just inside of my head.
I have longed for love, and
begged god to find a love for me that is true.
Instead a god was told to teach me,
to find a hidden love deep inside my soul.
God gives us all a love, that is never meant to die.
I wanted to find that too,inside another, soul to soul.
Instead a rhythmic beat began to explode.
A melodic journey cascaded deep within my soul.
My soul began to feel less alone,a journey of one became love untold.
Love inside permeated every pore, I no longer needed anything more.
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Where love resides

I have been waiting,what seems a liftime.
Months and months,this is for sure.
Wanting your love.
Your love for me however,is guilded
in friendship or perhaps not clear.
I hoped are love was not filled with fear.
I did not know this love was only my desire.
That my deep wanting would scare you away and keep you at bay.
I keep hoping you would find your way.

I am exhausted from trusting that are love would grow.
A love that showed and would simply flow.
My wishing was full blown,into my own fairytale.
I trusted you were my prince, and not a toad.
I had high hopes that that you would glow!
I was tempted and tantalized by your every move.
You are sweet and silky smooth playing me like the rhythm, on a drum.
Your palms and fingertips tracing every beat upon my heart.
I shudder inside at the thought of your lips touching mine.

I know if I wait,I will be waiting forever all alone because you will never concede
that your love resides for me.
I have lost the battle with your heart, always losing to one more of your dreams.
Your dreams are bigger than any love you have for me.
I guess I realized now that I have loved another, more than the love I had for me.
I wanted you think of me right alongside your every dream.
I wanted you to engage me into your life,no longer just on the outskirts where were always in a fight.
One last time I beg you let me inside,instead of continuing to tantilize me and tease me, just let me be.
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A Precious Moment

I felt safe in its embracing arms.
Each outreached arm provided a canopy of precious warmth.
I had shelter and place to feel calm.
It was womb or perhaps a cavern.
It had ethereal quality.
It provided a precious vision,
of reflective blue green crystal waters.
I finally felt home.
Pure peace and as the breeze breathed through.
I felt indulged with love
I felt a soul reflecting,awe!
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Love unspecified

In a memory,love is where I fall.
It is like distance dream and unreal.
A place where I once felt safe.
Where I never had to ligate.
Love embracing and reassuring.
A place to lay my head,from worry.
A place where love did not dissipate.
This is a place where love is precious.
There is no confusion,and there is no need for reason.
Love was the only season.

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A certian kind of light

There is certain angle of light,
that makes everything sparkling an bright.
It makes eyes sparkle and faces resonate.
This light reveals with clarity the beauty; hidden
and not foreseen.
This light, nourishes and unleashes the light from
deep within.
The light reveals your beauty buried deep inside.
This light is like love, and makes your beauty show.
To my amazement, the light makes my love grow.
As the light and love flow, your beauty make me feel whole.

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Amaryllis

The sun shines on your brilliance.
I see you pushing forth.
With strength and resilience.
Your magnificence unwavering.
Your glory is ready to embrace us.
Your growth is awe inspiring.
I feel the joy as I see you open.
The sun and life's sustenance breathing life into you.
Your deep unguided journey emanates the passion for living.
The power is the will and ability to flourish by the simple will
of a gods love and and the earths sustenance.
With amazement I will see you take your first deep and passionate breath.
Oh joy! There will be! As you you unmask with clarity,your beauty.
Karmasage

A Year Begin's

I was a scavenger in the night,
searching for answers and possibilities.
Something to fill me up!
Looking for the one thing, a solution
to my puzzle.
Something I could not find in someone or something else.


It took me to this moment,this very new year
to realize I am the key to my puzzle.
I feel at this moment, the answer to my
puzzle lives inside of me.
No other has key that fits the very hole,
that has locked up my soul.
I no longer need someone to navigate my
position, my inner compass has come alive.
I feel like I just chartered a flight not
a destination, but my journey is in sight.

I feel a passion erupting inside me,
not for another, but just for me.
I never really had a inner love that was just for me!
I was always waiting to be shattered,
when someone would stop loving me.
The rejection was more than I could bare,
that I would push them away.
Always making bargains that I could
succeed if they just loved me,in the right way.

Now it is me who is in charge of nurturing
an inner love that is done my way.
Maybe now I will be able to accept the love
that comes my way.
I will now take the time to understand with
love and not with fear.

I cherish this new year as it Begin's!
I feel a new beginning, I finally have
have hired a captain to steer my very own ship.
Although this is just an analogy,
I have found the love that,I
was always meant to see.
The love I have for me!
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Grace

I have been searching for some peace.
Searching outside myself,to make a lease.
The love I found I knew was dear,
instead I embraced all my fears.
The love I need to erase these fears,
resides deep inside of me.
A selfless love that encompasses, thee.
Sacred in its desire to show me the way.
A self love which is cherished and will help me break free.
Love adorned with sweet purity.
This is when I will truly sustain love with every sense of grace.
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Where's Loves Purity

I am very in touch,
with my insecurities with love.
My lack of trust diminished,
each time a button is pressed.
I sense an unveiling; of my unbridled
abandonment.
My expectation of love so high that
it sets up a love for failure!
The gestures of love, tests me,
and tempts me.
This Viral Love creates want and
criticism!
I blame others for not loving enough,
but this perfect love in my head does
not exist.
It is the love that already
exists that I need,
to embrace!
Let go of my fears, and feel whats there!
I am always been looking for this pure love
and in fact I am the one who needs to ensure
my love is pure.

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Lost

All I do is hold my breath!
Waiting,wishing,and hoping!
I need you to embrace me!
I need you to forgive me!
You instead push away and avoid
what you do not like.
You want to let things be.
You know that hurts me.
In solitude and not
much grace, I try to
find my place.
I try again to find
my peace.
Karmasage

Love where do I find you?

My hurt is not gone,but I just want
to let go.
I lived in the tears,and inside the pain.
Now I made my way back again.
I feel stronger,yet my pain sneaks back again!
I do not know how you feel,cause all I can hear
is your sarcasm and pain.
You sometimes redicule me and do not believe me.
I wonder if I can ever find the love again.
In you, in someone else, or find it inside me instead.
Everytime you ignore me,I feel my abandonment over and over again.
I know I have caused you hurt and pushed you away.
My lesson I am learning is I to cause pain, when I push people away.
My pain is not greater, or any less minor.
I am searching for love by healing these pains.
I wonder now if love will now find its way.
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Leaving

You are slipping away,
like sand slipping through my fingertips.
You feel like a stranger to me.
You found your glory,and your vulnerability.
I think you may of forgot about me.
I want you to be in your joy
but make a little room for me.
Even in are search through the dark
you still would always find me.
Through difficulties and challenges
you still believed in me.
I need some time,just a little for
me. I see how passion can bleed into
bits of nothing.
All your passion is for succeeding.
I cry for our passion that is leaving.
I thought myself strong,now I am wondering!
I feel fragile and dismissed.
I know you are exhilarated and happy!
But somehow I think you have now abandoned me.
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Every person wants someone to
love them.
Without conditions with total
acceptance.
We have a deep desire to be supported,
to share our glory and our fears.
We hope to find a place that
we belong.
A soft place too fall.
I long for a love, that supports
where I belong.
That is full with grace,and alleviates
all my fears.
Embracing and unwaivering.

Angel Blessings

She had grace,
She had a certain kind of light,
a gentle warmness,
a peace,
a person who was purely kind,
undeniable strength,
courage
and clarity and will
perhaps a spirit of like minds.

I have waited for you
for a lifetime.
Waiting for you to show up.
Waiting for you to find me.
Waiting for you too really love me.
I thought we had a sacred love!
A sacred trust.
But we forgot to be kind.
We forgot how to accept.
How to cherish and embrace.
We could not surrender.
We would not sacrifice.
We have are agendas,are baggage.
Are wills.
Where is the grace of love.
What happened to the sweet peace.
Nothing is left but a disheveled bond
and unbearable distrust.
A fractured love.

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Transformation
A beating heart.
A lover 's touch.
An angel's embrace.
A warm smile.
Forgiveness.
Fear to Faith.
Every moment embraced.
A hug from a child.
The love of a furry friend.
A majestic view.
Rhythm of the ocean.
The warmth of the sun.
A forest canopy.
A blessing from above.
A Love that runs deep.
True Peace.

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Open heart

I relent,I find my faith.
I no longer want to struggle.
I do not want to beg you
or be let down.
I do not want someone who
is incapable of caring.
I want words that have deep
meaning and filled with action.
That is what brings sweet peace,
a heart that shares.
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The test of Love

I feel like I am in battle.
All I want is peace.
I am tired of the anger I feel.
I know it takes two to break apart the love,
so your not all to blame.
Maybe if I let you be right
and let go of my anger and shame,
than we can blow out the flame.
Than maybe you will let me be.
I know that the freedom I seek will
really equal me missing you.

I just do not want to fight,
it is too hard.
I am not ready yet to let go
of my love..but you
have moved forward and I need
chance to do that to.

You have love for me, and are
scared to lose me completely.
Sometimes you have to let go
of love, set someone free, and
they may find their way back.
You have to have the trust, they will
come back to you.
Different and stronger.
You have a fear of losing me,
but right now their is nothing
left of me.
Our love has shifted, with fear and distrust.
Our love collided but it has become misguided.
I will always love you,but I can live with love
and not trust you.
I can not live joyfully when you do not trust me
enough to share with me.
Are wanting and desire is not strong enough
anymore to accept what we lack.

I am spent, not strong, not resilient
and lost.
I can not live wondering and not trusting
you.
I wanted to feel safe and be invited into your
life.
You are scared to be trapped but I would never
have path to find you.

I do not at this point know where to go.
I do not have desire to control you.
I have no energy to go looking for you.
If you wanted me to, I would however find you.
No more of energy will be spent fighting you,
blaming you, or escaping you.
Let's just find some peace.
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Moving toward Peace for me

I let go of any outcome.
I choose to not worry anymore,
that you will go away.
At this point I feel our
distance.
I do not want games,worries,
or frustration.
I do not want to choose to
feel alone with someone.
I know I can smile even when my
heart is breaking.
I know I will not die if you do
not call me,email me or message me.
I know I have reacted to every hurt and
test,each time showing that I care, at the
same time attacking.
My every breath has been filled with consciousness,
my every hurt and test filled me with anxiety.
Love is not something that should hurt,
and friendship has it ups and downs but a friend
does not hurt someone intentionally.
I am not sure what your plan has been but if
you listened you would of never caused further
pain.
I will no longer waste a moment trying to figure
out, how connection like I thought we had , could
come to end.
Maybe I believed, that we both would see the light,
heal our hurts, and find our way.
But neither of us had the courage to find a better way.
So I will now let us be, and I choose to find a way for me.
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I drift...you try to reach me.
Instead of holding on, you test me.
I guess I will never know when you
were honest and when it was just a game.
Maybe it was my lack of trust or
maybe it was you never gave me
a reason to trust.
Maybe we created a mirror where you
loved parts of me and I loved parts of you.
All I know is that it has been four years
or more, and now it does not mean much anymore.
It makes me sad that we both sets limits on love.
I can not see past your commitment issues,your misconstruded truths,
and limits to friendship.
Nor can you accept me for my desire for commitment, integrity
and openness.
We hold each other in bondage,in each others personal limitations.
Neither of us can move past are own capabilities.
Afterall when love is real you want to be more.
You try to continue and test me, but instead you have taught me how
to not care anymore.
I long for what might of been, but it was only my personal longing
and yours also.
We could of stayed friends if last Christmas you would of not changed
the rules and tested the limits and seen how far we might go.
Instead your left with woman who does not how to accept a man for a friend
with who she can not trust and would choose to hurt her instead.
If you want a loyal friend you never hurt them in the end.
I could of lived with friendship if you could of loved me enough
to know that my heart would break.
That my anger was awakened when you hurt me and made fun of the love I
had for youagain and again.
Although wrong, I attacked and found your set of buttons and
pushed straight ahead.
I have found that when man is just not capable of loving you,for who you are,and
you start to devalue who you are, that is not love.
To myself I finally need to be true, letting go is something I must do.
I do not know the outcome of what things will turn out to be, but for right now I must cherish myself instead of concentrating on you.
I would of continued put you first and lose myself, and forget about me.
In the end that is what I can thank you for, showing me that I need to love and trust myself once again.
In the end ,I know I cannot be patient, or loving enough to change someones mind.
I will try to find true love someday, acknowledge love lost, and even recognize a true love is not perfect. That individual pain sometimes suceed.
In the end we end up with nothing because we thought of are own needs instead of ours.
Karmsage